[eltdf_dropcaps type=”normal” color=”” background_color=””]M[/eltdf_dropcaps]y instinctive gripe with the proverbs 31 persona is just that she seems so perfect. Did that woman ever screw up? She seems to glide through her days with an unfaltering sense of self and purpose and seems perfectly aligned with her world and her responsibilities. All day. Erryday.

Er..ok. Good for her is what I normally think…Meanwhile, in the real world, as I battle sin, sin which I enjoy, which I repented of yesterday, commit today and repent of again. As I don’t always know if I get this, I don’t always feel like I understand myself, my place in this world, God doesn’t always make sense. And no, I don’t always suppose the greatest purpose of my life is to get married, have kids and live happily ever after teaching Sunday school and home schooling said offspring. 

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To be honest, I find the interpretation of the proverbs 31 model claustrophobic. It often feels one dimensional. The only time I hear it being punted is on how to be a good wife and mother…two things I am not. She seems boring and predictable. I don’t want to be her. I want to be me. I want the adventures that God has planned for me, in my uniqueness, bearing in mind my weakness and my strengths. I want to focus on relationships beyond those of spouse and kids. I feel the world is bigger than the proverbs 31 rhetoric I’ve been fed.

In actuality though, the proverbs 31 narrative does transcends beyond being a wife and a mother. But, you’d never guess that based on how the generic Christian community talks about it. I don’t want to sit comfortably in that generic box. I wanna discover the soul of this woman. Surely she had fears, surely she had bad days, surely she had issues, surely there was more to her than the fact that her husband’s heart trusts in her, surely surely surely!

Maybe she had a tattoo, maybe she ran a major company, maybe she did teach Sunday school, maybe she was barren, maybe she remained single?…I don’t think her worth and her beauty were the consequence of her social position and relationship status. She is worth more than rubies because her heavenly Father has placed that price tag on her. Regardless of her circumstances, she is valued. She is a woman who seeks after Gods heart – continually. That’s the type of woman I want to be. However that plays out in my life. I want her adventure, the adventure of being always led by the Spirit.

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