It is He who opens and closes the womb – my personal conviction
[eltdf_dropcaps type=”normal” color=”” background_color=””]W[/eltdf_dropcaps]e got married in November 2010. My husband and I were at age 22 and 24 and a lot of people asked us; “Why so young?” “Are you going to have kids right away?” “You know, kids these days cost a fortune” this was the typical response from most of our friends and family. I must say, they really did a good job at scaring me into having kids as they made it sound as if kids are a curse. Some of my friends encouraged me to get “the pill”. They really did have a good point you know, I was ‘only’ 22. So ignorant in what the pill actually does, I went to the doctor about two months before our wedding. The doctor just gave me a prescription without even explaining what the pill is. I had no idea. I knew I had to drink this pill and I will have a 99.9% chance of not getting pregnant. I read the instructions to which pill to take when as they were quite colourful and just by looking at it, it seemed okay.
I used it in total of about six months however; four months into our marriage I started to realize that I would get mad and angry about everything. Everyone and every little thing irritated me. I really started to get scared as I am not an angry person. I then realized these feelings and outbursts started about the same time as I started taking that pill. I decided to read through the leaflet or kind of searched for the topic ‘side effects’ and just skipped everything else, still not reading what I’ve been taking. I was shocked at what kinds of harmful effects this one little pill can have on a person.
So I told my husband, “I’ m not taking these pills anymore. I am not willing to change my personality or put my health at risk, just not to be pregnant”.
After about two years of marriage, we really started digging into Gods Word and we saw that having kids is really not that bad. It’s not the way the world wants you to view having kids. And only about that time I was randomly searching for videos on YouTube of Paul Washer, John Piper and John MacArthur, that I saw in the suggested list on the side a video about John Piper talking about birth control. After watching the whole time with an open mouth, I started doing research on what the pill actually does. It actually is just like abortion. I was so upset I just cried and cried! This pill that everybody recommends is actually bringing down a fertile egg. Which means, you are killing your unborn, under developed baby. I read that at the age of five weeks, a fertile egg is the size of a sesame seed! AND it already has a HEARTBEAT! So that’s one tiny baby! It’s still just a little cell but it’s a living little cell, and you can actually call it a baby! So it’s a miracle, and by drinking that pill, you are actually killing that wonderful gift God has created. One of the 10 commandments immediately popped into my mind – ‘thou shall not kill’
So I felt so convicted about taking it for four months, it just tore me up. I was heartbroken at the fact that I could have killed a baby without even knowing it. God showed us in His word that children are a reward, a blessing.
Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord, the fruit of the womb a reward. Like arrows in the hand of a warrior are the children of one’s youth. Blessed is the man who fills his quiver with them! He shall not be put to shame when he speaks with his enemies in the gate. (Psalm 127:3-5 ESV)
We started to change our whole view about having kids. We also listened to Voddie speaking on Love and Marriage, and it gave me a whole new perspective to understand that verse in Psalm 127.[eltdf_blockquote text=” Imagine raising little soldiers, fighting for God’s Word. Teaching them the way we ought to walk, raising them to stand so firmly in God’s Word as arrows in the hand of a Warrior! Isn’t that just the sweetest sound of God’s Name being glorified?” title_tag=”h2″ width=””]
So here we are 2 years after having a complete different outlook on having kids and God blessed us we have our first little soldier born in September 2014.
I do pray that God will work within each lady to see His plan, to trust God in everything you do, as only He knows best. He is the Creator, of everything, He knew everything before we existed. He creates life, and He creates with a purpose (without sounding like a “name it and claim it” preacher) and He knows the best time. All we can do is to trust in the Lord, as He opens the womb, and closes it….
Contributed by Erica Eloff- this is her personal conviction.
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